So much going on.

I got fired from ServiceMaster in april bc of my driving record. Got hired at Walmart 3 days later. BIG pay cut there. went from 50hr weeks at $10/hr to 39-40hrs at $7.80/hr. I hate it. I put in a request for transfer to overnights, bc they get paid $2more plus ill have my days free for a part time job.

I bought a new car and two motorcycles for me, as well as a pickup for my dad and a car for my sister with the majority of my mom's life insurance that got released to me on my 19th birthday.

My car gets an avg. of 25mpg (only to work and back) and my cruiser bike averages 45mpg (not matter what). The crotchrocket still needs work, so it dont work.

I have since moved outta my old place into a new one. Still with two of my old roommates, but gained another. Paying $300/month plus utilities for a bigger place then before. The old landlord stiffed us for damages that were there prior to move in (roomates there first but didnt take pics, so no proof. So we need to pull the $1200 deposit outta our asses and I'm thankful for paycheck advance places, otherwise it wouldnt be happening.

I can't afford real food, so I've been eating Totinos pizzas and Banquet frozen meals for the past month. I miss real food D:.

Somehow i need to get to my feet and have money by Nov. 19th or I wont be going to MFF again this year. I'll need $40 for registration, probably $150 for hotel, about $130 for gas, plus food money and stuff i buy while there. chances are i can have $300 ready to go for then and if my roomies go too, then gas and hotel will be split.

Finally I repost something a read. Got this from



[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'(my car)
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.(once when my lil sis shut the screen on me)
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.(playing gameboy walking home from 5th grade)
[] You have been called a blonde.

TOTAL: 5


[] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[x] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
TOTAL: 10


[] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x] You type with three fingers or less. (sad part is im faster then my typing teacher was)
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire. (modifying a lighter to make flames bigger, bad idea)
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose. (while laughing)
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.(either when hungry and/or half alseep)

TOTAL: 14

[x] You have fallen asleep in class.(chemistry class was nap time)
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.(its my form of mediation)
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.8all the time...
[] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'

TOTAL: 17

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.(used to hide bad stains that way )
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.(phone, pocket)

TOTAL: 21


[] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "um" is used frequently.
[x] You don't know what "um" means.
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[x] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin. (gonna use fingers too)
GRAND TOTAL: 27

NOW, take your total, and multiply it by 4.
and re-post as: I am --% Mentally ill.

This first week of joblessness has been more like a vacation then anything. Which if you have talked to me at any point in time, you'd know that my last job sucked and I needed a vacation soon to avoid insanity soon anyway.
Well I was all stressed and all but things are looking up.

I went to an old family friend for a lil help. He is very religious. Not Kill all fags religious, but he preaches at a mission he helped start in town. Well after I went to the mission and helped out, I got a bag of groceries. That took care of food. Come to find out after doing a lil thinking that I'm not atheist, I'm more of a Chirstian Agnostic. Ths means I believe in the Christian God and Jesus Christ, but I'm skeptical about most the rest of the religion (including the bible).

I had three total interviews with Walmart, the same one my bf works at. The third interview was basically meeting the main boss and taking a drug test. It's confirmed that I will be working there once the background check comes back. The check will be back hopefully by tomorrow and if so I will start on saturday. YAY!

Well I'm jobless. One too many traffic violations on my record, so I got fired. Damn it. I've already started sending my resume to just about any company that is hiring. Let's hope.

Our landlord wants to sell his house, so we either need to get a loan or move out. This is such bs, but I may be able to move in with my sis.

I'm far past sad, mad, or even upset at this point. Now I'm some mutated mix of feelings that could only be described as anguish. I don't know what to do.

Its been a few weeks since my last journal post and things are slowly looking up. Money is still tight, but at least this time it's tight after I buy a whole bunch of food.
Mike went to an interview with Target, they wanted to steal him away from Walmart and give him $10.25/hr (walmart is paying $8.75). Well almost two weeks later of stringing along, they tell him they dont need him. x.x
The day before he was gonna go back to work, the roommates sat us down for a talk. They complained about the fact that he been outta work. Said he didnt do anything but play video games while is toe broke. >.< Like he's gonna do much on a broken toe. They complained about us not cleaning and leaving dishes just sitting in sink. Well up until then we had no food, so no dishes were being used and I was either working or relaxing. Plus I had just went out of my way to clean the carpets at home the week before.
His toe is fine now and started back at walmart. He works basically works every day 11-7, so now I dont hardly see him anymore. Typically its about 2-2.5 hours before I go to bed.

Yesterday I was home alone. I did the dishes (sink full of dirty dishes, none from me) and emptied the bag of cans. Then watched tv. My dad called wanting me to watch my sisters so he could do "something", so I left. I got home at 4:30 in the morn, went to room and a strip of toilet paper was on the door, red ink saying "park better mike". I was too tired be pissed, but i looked out the window and mike did park off. Whatever. I put the "note" aside and went to bed. This morning I wrote a note and stuck on fridge before I left to watch my sisters again. Lets hope this hasnt all started a war.